Sunday, 28 June 2009

Don't Go Chasing Rainbows

After probably the worst nights' sleep I've had in months, I woke up hot, grumpy and angry. The contents of my garden have been pruned to within an inch of their lives. My house is spotless and my week's laundry is not just done, i've even ironed and folded it all. Anything to block out that bloody email and the resulting disappointment.

G texted me "Are you ok" and then phoned to check that I hadn't overdosed on Haribos as I'd run out of ice cream.

"I don't know what to say darling. The guy's a jerk (I wish it was true G, but S2 isn't which is why i'm so gutted) you're an amazing, wonderful person. it's just these bloody men!. I'm glad you ditched those dating sites, they're just destroying your confidence. You know these bloody sites really aren't meant for everyone". Don't I know it!

I was about to protest, but she was of course right. For once in my life I'm not going to try and be Superwoman putting on a brave face on things and launching optimistically headfirst into yet another disaster. I'm going to take time out, get off the dating merry-go-round, focus on my writing, my family and my friends, being fabulous and counting my blessings.

After all nobody died, I just have a very bruised ego. I'll get over it. I always do.

1 comment:

bibi said...

Sometimes dating does suck ! Real-life isn't like Sex and the City.
Give yourself a break and don't be so hard on yourself. S2 isn't worthy of you!